// // Today was a beautiful day outdoors, 71*, soft breeze, blue sky and sunshine.
Inside I was feeling like thick mud that is impossible to walk through when it’s chest high. And it kept inching higher. I had quickly gone from feeling great yesterday to badly depressed today. By this afternoon I wanted to die. And I had a couple of ideas as to how. I struggled to push through doing laundry, going outside to remove dead patches from our bushes, but it was still tough. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve been through this scenario. There has to be a better way than suicide but when I get this low I consider it. When I hit bottom, there are no other options. My remedy: Go to bed and hubby must keep a careful eye on me ’til the mood passes.
Docs, please find something to help us soon.
I hope to have some interesting sites to share with you soon.