// // Today was a beautiful day outdoors, 71*, soft breeze, blue sky and sunshine.
Inside I was feeling like thick mud that is impossible to walk through when it’s chest high. And it kept inching higher. I had quickly gone from feeling great yesterday to badly depressed today. By this afternoon I wanted to die. And I had a couple of ideas as to how. I struggled to push through doing laundry, going outside to remove dead patches from our bushes, but it was still tough. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve been through this scenario. There has to be a better way than suicide but when I get this low I consider it. When I hit bottom, there are no other options. My remedy: Go to bed and hubby must keep a careful eye on me ’til the mood passes.
Docs, please find something to help us soon.
I hope to have some interesting sites to share with you soon.
Godspeed, J
I’ve never know anyone with severe bipolar disorder, at least not to the extent that you are experiencing, and I must say, it is enlightening to see how different two sides of life can be.
Thank you for your comment, awhimsicalsoul. It is my desire to give some insight to others by sharing my journey. With time, I hope to share some information that I have found invaluable from other trusted websited. I’d like to build a resource here once I’ve gained some trust. Once again thank you for reading and for your comment. I’ll check out your site.
Godspeed, J
I will definitely share your experiences with some of my friends, as one never knows when one’s own life will take a spiral downward. Hope you succeed in battling against such a difficult disorder =)
Thank you. I want to help as many as possible.